My wake up call
Woke up the shadows inside
The angel drowning in the white noise
A highway to self-destruction
Projections and bright lights
So high we lost the connection
Things shared, best kept under the cover of night
Should have kept our underpants and the lights on
Never looking for understanding
But an excuse to undermine the control
Let the darkness out from under the skin
Before we realize the mess we're in
Freedom was dancing with the walls of our cages
And nothing held us back with the eyes closed
I'm in outer space and you hold me close
I hang onto my shackles to keep ashore
Trying to lose my mind in the moment,
The moment of madness that mesmerized us
A moment of mindfulness could have blinded us
No fear in my eyes until too late
No reason to fear until I realized
There was no me, there was only you
There was no you, there was only lust
Past the point of no return until we turned to dust
We fell in lust with the mirror
But the mirror showed us only rust
It wasn't about us
(or me) (or even you)
I don't think I can judge at all
Broadcasting the siren call
Beckoning to the depths of the abyss
Maybe it is just miscommunication
I wasn't given enough information
To give informed consent to the situation
My imagination never hinted I was in
Such deep conversations inside my head
And yet unaware of how deep the consequences
Would crawl through the nooks and crannies
Craving beautiful poison in open wounds
A lifetime is still too short to heal
Can't say I don't see the appeal
But inside my head it is noisy
And all songs end with us both being dead
An excuse to feel something
Feel alive again flirting with death
And I'm not ready to feel like
A poor excuse for assisted suicide
Call shotgun on a crash and burn ride
While I'm barely afloat enough to save myself
You made me up as an excuse to hurt yourself
You made me your excuse to be yourself
A goddess and a tamed beast fell in love
But the goddess only wanted to be human
And what the beast missed was being wild.
