Trial and error - a poem

I was feeling too alone for my own sake.

You said you missed me

And I started to dream again

Just a nostalgic spell

That's all you mean to me

And I keep telling myself it's more than that.

I feel sometimes

Like I need to be in love to feel alive

And you've became my escape route

Because you got so close to me.

I desire your body

I miss your touch upon my skin

And I know in my bones

We're gonna be together for a while

And be gone.

Because as much as I love you

I'm sure as hell it'll never be

As much as you love me

I know it isn't enough to keep us together

'Cause distance is a bitch

And we both are nothing but whores

Do you believe you could be mine and mine alone?

I don't think so.

Do you think I could be faithful to you?

We know it just won't happen.

It doesn't matter how many times I whisper in your ear

I love you so much it hurts

As soon as I come back, I'd still fuck someone else

As soon as I turn my back

You'll be sleeping in someone else's bed

And that's precisely what I love so much about you

The fact that you are even worthless than I am

We'd be great together

But none of us is crazy enough to step forward to it

Because we know it'd be too advanced for the world

So happy together, so far away, so in love, so many people in between.

I show my skin to you

You show me how you feel

You're the only one I feel so comfortable about

You have always been the only one

And yet it's fated to be a platonic thing

We hook up and fuck around

And it's perfect and we feel safe

And then I go away and you get sad

And the next day you're with someone else, and so am I.

Someday, we'll get married

And have kids

And live happily ever after

It sounds delightfully like a fairy tale

Only we will never marry each other

I'm never having your babies

You'll never be the one I'm celebrating anniversaries with

We'll always be just like we are

A sweet memory of an adventure we had

And you'll say, "We were young and reckless and didn't know what we were doing"

Despite all that

There's one thing I can't deny

I've always loved you

We are too perfect to each other to make this work

And you will always be the best sex I've ever had

And I'm too damn sorry

That the circumstances weren't different

We could have been together forever

Only forever doesn't exist.

So, keep this memory safe

Because, as long as you keep it

We'll always be together.